Hi, my name is TonyI know what it feels like to move through life quietly falling apart — while telling everyone, “I’m fine.”
For me, content was everything.
I thought I had it all figured out.
I made money doing what I loved.
People saw me as the guy who “just got it.”
I could come up with an idea in 5 minutes. I knew how to make Reels go viral. I taught others how to optimize profiles, write hooks, keep people watching.
Clients came to me on their own.
Demand was high. It all felt… normal.
I was the creator who always delivered. Working 24/7. Always “on.”
Until one day — it was like someone pulled the plug.
At first, it was subtle. A little more tired than usual.
A bit harder to get into flow. More coffee. Less joy.
Then — I started missing ideas. Scripts took longer. Deadlines felt heavier.
I was
there — but not really. Like someone had unplugged me from the inside. I tried to push through.
I told myself it was just a dip.
“Come on. You’ve done this a hundred times.” But every attempt at creativity felt like dragging a dead body.
I’d open the laptop… and stare. Cursor blinking. Brain frozen.
And then — her
My girlfriend. We had been together for four years.
She left for Europe to study.
We promised we’d make it work.
Late calls. Support. Spring trip.
I was saving up for a surprise visit.
Planning everything. That gave me energy.
That — was the light.